It has been 10 months since I purchased my URL. I had every intention of having my new website finished and launched as the New Year rang in (well, I was realistic, and was pretty sure it would be closer to the end of the month). But here we are, almost a full year later and I am over the moon that I have FINALLY finished this baby! I couldn’t be happier. Talk about a weight being lifted off of my shoulders.
This past year has been really interesting, in a number of ways. For much of the year I felt cloudy, like I was living in a fog, I wanted to create, to build new offerings, to build this darn website, however I just couldn’t seem to find my flow. I would write something down, step away, and when I would come back to review it, it just didn’t feel right. This was happening all the time. Has this ever happened to you? Like you had a plan, knew what needed to get done, but it felt like you were trying to force it, and no matter how long you stepped away (hours, days, even weeks) you just couldn’t create something that you knew in your gut was “the thing”.
I was really struggling, and I just didn’t know what to do. Now some of you will think that this will sound crazy, but I booked a session with someone who can read Akashic Records (Google it if this is a new term to you, but don’t judge me if you aren’t in to that sort of thing, because I am!) and she informed me that I was in a transition period. On an energetic level, I was getting cleared of a lot of old outdated energies. But as a result of that, I had no foresight. I was in the middle of the muck and couldn’t see clearly. It didn’t matter how much I wanted to get things done, there were bigger things at play and when I heard this it resonated so deeply and I finally just surrendered. It was the best thing that I ever could have done. Instead of resisting where I was and trying to force things into creation, I accepted where I was and let go of the need to cater to what I thought was supposed to happen. I listened to what I felt guided towards instead.
Letting go allowed me so much freedom, for one thing, to really enjoy the time I had with my family over this past summer. If I wasn’t teaching a class, or working with a client, I was at home enjoying my time there. That didn’t leave any time for Admin work, which any self-employed person knows, is a lot! It was such a different experience than the summer before. That summer, I often felt a tightness in my chest (far too often), and the first day the kids were back in school, I was spinning with how much I was trying to cram into one day. That whole week, my stress level was through the roof.
This is not to say that I now just float around on a cloud and don’t get anything done. I simply allow myself to be more guided in my day, getting done what I can, stopping and cuddling with my cats when they ask for it or I just need a few minutes to breathe and ground, I take time to exercise and meditate, I take time to play with the kids, I try to plan date nights with my hubby, I really try to embody what I teach to others.
I can’t tell you how much better I feel in all ways. How much better my family feels when they have a much calmer and more grounded partner and mother. I may not have the next year or two all planned out career-wise (which for me is really a calling, not a job!), but I am entirely ok with that. Joyful laughter flows much more easily these days (something I hadn’t realized had been missing since I lost my mother…but that’s another blog post entirely!). Don’t get me wrong, life is still full of ups and downs, and I get regular curve balls thrown at me, but I am much better able to navigate them now.
Sometimes things just don’t work out the way we plan, but all good things come in time! And hopefully we learn a little (or in the case a lot) along the way, like cultivating patience, and how easy it can be letting go! Because I tell you, surrender feels so damn good!
Welcome to www.andreapritchard.ca!!! Take a look around and please reach out, to say hi, to ask questions, to book in. Whatever floats your boat!
Sending so much love!